25/9/2002
It's been the 3rd day of my new job and I'm still clueless about alot of stuffs which I'm supposed to do! I guess it will take some time for me to learn and get to know the things which I will be doing... however, I did meet up with a lot of pple from the media industry...that's the part which I enjoy about my job...able to meet and know the media pple - exchanging name cards and doing some PR with them...though I'm dun really like to do PR (cos I think it's damn fake and plastic - putting on a big smile (even if you dun like the person) and entertain them, but it's part of my job so I guess I cant run away from it! sigh...
Anyway my new colleagues are fine..they seems a nice bunch of people... I will slowly get to know them more as the days go by... hopefully I will be able to get along well with them! Well my boss will be bringing me down to the radio and tv ad production hse to let me know how the production of our albums' ads are being produced and made...guess there will be more pple to meet up again...grin sounds cool isnt it? well I hope so...

Time is moving so fast! My birthday has just passed in a glance... I cant believe I'm in my mid twenties now! sigh There are so many things that I havent accomplished in my life yet... this is really sad indeed! so many things and yet so little time... I wish I can go back to my younger days where life is so carefree and fun...where I'm so naive and innocent...and where my inner mind and soul are not experiencing worries, stress and depression.... sigh There are so many expectations and responsibilities in life as you get older...
Well I had a quiet birthday celebration this year... just had dinner with a few close frens of mine.. didnt go clubbing or anything too... I just dun have the mood to do any hoo-haa celebrations for my birthday this year... I think as you grow older, you would not be excited about your birthday... it just comes to a point where having birthday celebration is meaningless...sigh...

Anyway, I finally bought the new album by Coldpay - " A Rush of Blood To The Head"! I have been contemplating for quite awhile whether to get it and today while I was at MPH (Mad People House), I have this insanity in me that shot to my head which I just grabbed the cd and paid for it (without any thinking at all).. well when my sanity shook me back to reality, I didnt regret it... it was worth it! The album was great! I guess sometimes insanity helps me to make a better decision! grin

Oh well, weekend is over again! Tomorrow I will be starting my first day at work in my new job... I hope it dun sucks for me... usually first day at work can be very dull and boring...I'm afraid of what I will be experiencing morrow... hmm... I still havent think of what to wear for morrow! shucks! I will have to search through my wardrobe for a nice set of clothes...time to crack my head again! shucky!!

HeeHaa!! So many things has been happening in my life for the past few days. I have just been offer a new job and will be starting work on Monday!! Gosh!! I cant believe this is happening so fast! I'm still kindda stress over looking for a new job last week becos I'm really sick of my current one and suddenly the opportunity just came in a flash! I'm feeling elated but at the same time scared of my new job sigh... Why am I feeling in such a dilemma state!! Cum'on! I shouldnt be thinking too much about it. It's the job that is so related to what I have studied and interested in and moreover, it's 1) so fucking near to my house - just 10-15 mins walk to my work place from home. 2) The working hours is 10.00 am to 6.00 pm Hoo Yeah!! I am not a morning person and I always hate to wake up early in the morning and from monday onwards, I do not have to wake up so early in the morning anymore! 3) the dress code is quite flexible and I can get to wear my causal clothes almost everyday except when there's events or meetings that I have to attend! All these sound too good to be true! How wonderful!

Anyway my birthday is just tomorrow!! I'm turning 25!!! Oh My God!!! I'm getting old! This sucks man! How I wish I can remain 21 always! I always want to stay at 21 rather than 18! I guess 21 is the age where you have finished your study and start to plan and do big things in your life plus this is the legal age where you can buy your own house! grin... Oh man! I dun have the power to turn back the clock to be 21 again! Anyone knows how to make a time machine?? grin

15/9/2002
It's 7 am in the morning now and I'm still fully awake! Cant get back to sleep after having slept (or probably a short nap) for 5 hrs earlier! I fell asleep earlier at around 11 plus and woke up at 4 am in the morning! and I felt so strange and weird when I woke up! I thought that I have to work the next day and I'm thinking what the fuck I'm waking up at such a weird hour! and suddenly it hit on me that it's SATURDAY! gosh! What am I thinking man! guess work stress is getting on me!

Well leeds won against Man U today! Aw man!! I cant believe it! Man U is really down on their luck lately! Leeds is really getting better this season! They have won the previous match against Newcastle and now they have beaten Man U! It's so unbeliveable! I'm not really that into EPL (English Premier League) but this match just gets me so interested in it. Oh well, Leeds won and I'm so sad becos I'm hoping Man U awill win! I hope they will do much better in their next match!

14/9/2002
I have been down on my luck lately! Everything is going so wrong for me! My laptop was spoilt and when I thought I still have my old pc to depend on, its keyboard turned its back on me and I have to get a new keyboard to replace it. Plus, I bought a new external modem from Sim Lim the other day, to be installed in my pc, thinking that it will help to increase the speed of my internet access (my current internal modem is fucking super slow), and the modem just couldnt work! I'm still trying to figure out what's the problem and I still couldnt solve it! ARRGH!! Worse still, I have to spend alot of money on getting my laptop fixed up plus the money that have already spent in getting a new keyboard and modem! Aw! I feel so despondent and despair! I want a new pc!! I need a new pc! I long for a new pc! This is my message to god:
My dear almighty god,
I have always been a nice and good gal and I havent done anything bad or wrong in my life. Please be kind to me and take pity on this poor little girl by granting me my wish of getting a new pc! I WILL promise to do more good deeds to repay you! Amen.

10/9/2002
ARRGH!!!! I'm so frustrated! My stupid dumb pc betrayed me last night!! The first time it crashed (about a month ago) and now the monitor went blank!! Arrgh!!! I felt like smashing it into broken pieces!! Why does it always have to die on me?? Anyway I think my monitor is spoilt. I dun know what happened and I need to bring it to Sim Lim for servicing. Hopefully it doesnt cost me a bomb! and hopefully it still have some sanity to be normal again! There's so many things I wanna do together with my pc but now I cant do them! Fucking Hell!!! Arrrghh!!!! I dun know what I'm going to do tonite without my dumb pc around!! Arrghhh!!!

Anyway I'm using my office's pc to update my blog now! sigh... oopss.. time to knock off!! i need to rush off to Sim Lim now! Later man!

7/9/2002
Hip hip Hooray!! Weekend is here! It always feel so good to be the weekend simply becos you know that you doens't have to wake up early the next day for work! I'm a lazy person and I always find it so hard to wake up early in the morning! Although I love the sun and shine, but i'm always restless during the day but hyper-active at night! I guess I'm the daughter of the evil darkness who likes to roam around actively at night - looking for preys! *grin* ... anyone wanna sacrifice themselves?? *evil grin*

Anyhow, I just received a letter from M1 that I have 4000 plus points in my M1 sunperk rewards!! Wow!! Unbelievable!! These 4000 points means that I have spent around 4000 bucks on my phone bills for the past 1 year!! Gosh! This is so amazing! Well I guess I'm really a heavy mobile phone user and M1 must be really earning fucking lots of money from customers like me! Oh well! I guess I have to think of which rewards I will like to redeem thru my points and make full use of this reward system!

5/9/2002
Yipee!! I bought a new pair of Levis's hipster jeans today! I have been "eyeing" this jeans for quite awhile and I dun know what hit me today which make me decided to buy it! woooahhh!! Probably I guess I wanna pamper myself.... I have always been a shopaholic but I havent bought anything since last week. I used to be an impulsive buyer but now I'm more careful of what I'm buying. Though this jeans cost me quite a bomb, but come to think of it, it's LEVIS which says "Quality Never Goes Out of Style". Well I hope it truly lives up to its name.

Anyway, I went to HMV to check out the new Coldplay's album after getting my Levis jeans. Besides the hit single "In Your Place" which have been tuning in my head since I first heard on the radio, there are a few songs (i cant remember the title) which are quite good too. hmm.... should I get the album?? I also checked out the album by The Vines and I would say that they are definately another great UK's rock band! All the songs in the album are damn good! Aw!! Now I'm in a dilemma! Should I get Coldplay or The Vines?? hmm.....or maybe....hmm..... I should just get both? hmm.....tough decision though! But i cant spend too much money this month... Yark!!

14/8/2002
Why do men like to lie to women? I just dun understand it at all! Why cant they just dun the truth? Why cant they be honest? I have been so hurt by all the lyings that i just broke down and cried! I'm always been a cry baby! I cried so easily! I dun know and I dun understand it at all. I wish i can just let it go so easily but i cant.. i dun know why...and dun ask me why...i really have lost all trust and confidence in him... i wish i can see things in a brighter ways... i really hope i can... things would be much easier that way...I just simply cant take it anymore...