Caught "Gangs of New York" on Friday night........ Gosh!.......... It was fucking nearly 3 hrs long!......... And I was sitting at the second front row of the cinema and can you imagine all the while I had to tilt my head high to watch the show......... and what's worse was there was this unseemly and smelly big and fat man (he reminds me of the Fat Bastard in Austin Power 2) who kept snoring, scatching his head and fidgeting around that was making me so uncomfortable.......... I have never seen such a no manners cum rudeness person in my life before........ The whole while I cant even concentrate on the movie....... Fucking CB man!.......... Anyway the show was super violent......... Killings were done without any eye blinking at all ......... Very cruel........ Riots everywhere....... Corruptions around......... Only the triad leader had the power......... Native vs Foreign........... I cant imagine a society in this manner!.........Felt so lucky to be living in such a safe place where law and order are being uphold rightly and justified...........

Anyway, was walking around town earlier and realised that everywhere was having sales due to Post-Christmas Day.......... Apparels like Topshop, Mango, U2, G2000, Ms Selfridge, GG>5 etc......... Departmental stores like Taka, Metro, Tangs, Robinsons........ And even bookstore like Borders......... Sales!....... Sales!......... Sales!......... No wonder super jammed with muggards as usual...... Damn buay tahan!...... I have to avoid town for the next few weeks man!

The music at Zouk was kindda boring last night......... Timo Mas was spinning.......... supposed to play house music but in the end all kinds of music came out....... Got Tribal music........ Madonna's songs......... Yucks!......... Think PVD is still better......... No wonder he is No. 4 Top World DJ.............And you could see by the turnout at Zouk last night compared to PVD's night as well....... Anyway was there becos to accompany a fren.... Not becos of the music!

I really dont understand it at all......... sigh......... When you bo chap a guy, he complained that he doesnt have a place in my heart and I dont showered him enuf love and care and in the end he got pissed and hurt ......... And when you chap a guy much, he complained that you are too demanding and sensitive and in the end you are the one who got hurt........ sigh........... What am I supposed to do?......... I'm totally at a loss...... I have been hurt and learnt my lesson of showering and giving too much that I have adopted a Fuck-Care attitute now....... But I hurt someone becos of that........ And it is making me very miserable for the past 2 days becos I felt so shitty......... Is X'mas day a really big deal to have to spend it with your loved ones?......... Why cant just spend it on any other day?!?........ Really dont get it at all........ X'mas doesnt mean much to me...... and I dont give a damn about it.......... and that's why I didnt make any effort and broke my promise........

And just when I already had enough misery, a far away fren was upset at me for some reasons........ Gosh!!......... What is the problem man!?!........... Why did everyone get angry at me when I just didnt care?.......... Can you guys just give me a BREAK and leave me ALONE!!!

HOHOHO........ Merry Xmas!........ Have been receiving so many Xmas's greetings from frens last night.......... Xmas is the day for Peace, Love and Joy!......... Anyway, yesterday had a small celebration with colleagues at work..... Happened to be my boss and another one of my colleague's birthday at the same time...... Had some cakes and X'mas exchange thingy......

Then later in the evening, went to a fren's place for barbecue......... My supposed plan was to go buy food for the barbecue with a fren and then meet another fren for dinner with his family and then went back to the barbecue again.......... Was kindda force to go to the dinner with his family.......... Just wanted to make him happy.......... Didnt feel like going and I guessed fren sensed it.......... Hence, in the end, he told me it's fine if I didnt wanna go ............and I agreed cos I rather stayed at the barbecue............ I knew that he was sad about it......... He said Xmas is a special day to spent time with your loved ones........ BUT I'm not neither a Christian or a Catholic........ and X'mas doesnt means anything to me............ It is just a day where I can party and take a break from work........... Anyhow, cooked Fried Mee Hoon for the barbecue........ and it was a sell-out!...... Everyone said it's very nice!........ grin .......... I'm not really a great cook but I do know how to cook some simple dishes..... Eat, Watch VCD, Eat, Exchange Pressies, Eat, Play games........ Stayed over at his place........ Just got back awhile ago....... Only have a few hours of sleep left.......... Have to wake up early later to go to fren's house for some dinner........ Cant sleep till 5 or 6 in the evening today...........This time I really have to go...... Becos I have made a promise to him to wake up early and go to his place for some dinner again........(Arrghhh!!....... sigh.........).....

Prezzies Received for 2002's Xmas:
~ A Cute Hand Towel
~ A Super Big, Chi-Na and Ugly Piggy Bank
~ A Nice Scent Davidoff's Woman Shampoo
~ A Retro Clock

Well fren was back today's morning....... Recevied a call from him after he touched down........... Was glad to hear his voice again.......... It's been so long since I last saw him (Right Dre? grin.......)........ Will have to catch up with him real soon becos he's going back next week for his summer class......... Welcome Back Dre!!

Went to town earlier..... Super dooper jam packed with lots of muggards....... Everyone rushing to do their last min Xmas's shopping.......Cashiers long queue........... Wrapping counters also long queue...........Even foodcourt was packed without any seats available........ Have to wait for awhile before getting a place just to eat and drink...... Scary man!..........Hate crowded places...... But got no choice...... Cos have to get some pressies for gift exchange morrow....... Legs were aching earlier........ And now after all the tireness, I still have to wrap my presents....... FUCK!..... Dun care liao..... I'm just gonna anyhow wrap them and go to bed.....
Oh ya..... Fren finally coming back on Wednesday's morning...... FINALLY AGAIN!......[Have a safe flight ya! = )]....... Catch-up time again!.....

My new comp FINALLY has a place of its own...... Mum FINALLYbought a table for me to place all my new gadgets on it....... Everything is in place now...... Printer is set up FINALLY....... The Palm Top software is also FINALLY installed into my new comp and ready to use...... FINALLY!!......YAY!!........... And now I'm using my new comp to type this blog and also to download mp3..... grin .......... Flavour of the month - Livehouse ::Spin::!

Spectacular!.......... Amazing Effects!.......... Beautiful Scenary!.......... Exciting Battle !........ Cute Elve!.......... Funny Dwarf!......... Brave Aragorn!..........Wise Gandalf!...... The Two Towers!....... Definately my vote for the Best Movie of the Year!....... 3 hrs doesnt seems like 3 hrs.... wish it will be longer.... cant wait for "The Return of The King" to be shown..... Arrrgh!!..... Gonna be another year again!!........ I have better finished reading the trilogy book.....BUT I have already read the ending even before I finish reading the whole book! grin.....

FINALLY!......... My new comp has ARRIVED!........ Got a good deal in getting it..... FREE Printer......... FREE Web Cam......... LCD screen...... all these below $2K......... dam cool!......... Check it out
*COMPAQ*

Feels so weird........ difficult to show my affections........ dont really know about my inner feelings........ maybe it's been a long time since such thing has been showered on me....... It's definately feels so pampered and honoured to be loved by someone rather than to loved someone....... LOVE! What is LOVE?? What do you do when someone says "I LUV You" to you???....... Do I have to reply back "I LUV You too!" as well??........... Or just smile and keep quiet??......... Or just simply says "Thanks for loving me!"??........

Gonna go KL sometime soon....... adventure trip for me...... dam exciting!.... cant wait for the day to come.....after that, gonna go up to Thailand! Woooo Hooooo....... it's been a while since I go there though I have been there twice!..... this will be the third time...... wondering are there any changes since I last left!

Heard the economy will be worse next year..... and there are about 10,000 pple in Singapore who are currently jobless..... wondering what will happen to them once the economy dipped even further down!......... and more and more fresh new graduates are entering the working world every year..... and the unemployment rate will increase even higher!........ I felt pity for those who got their degree overseas and till now still cant find a job!....... fucking waste so much parent's hard-earned money to go overseas but come back do nothing and be a bummer!........ Such losers!.......... I pity the parent's as well......... to have such loser's children!!

Cant stand it........ some people just like to fucking complain and complain and complain and complain about their life but not doing anything or something about it..... these pple are just fucking losers!!....... If you are not happy with your life then just FUCKING end it!.... GO!! Just DIE!! FUCKING JUST DIE!!!...... Death will be the best solution for you!......We dun need this kind of people in this world!!..... What's the point of complaining and complaining to pple?!?.......... Is it gonna change the better for you? DUMBHEADS!!!

PVD was SUPERB!.......COOL!......... GREAT!......... the money was indeed worth paying for........he is really one of the best DJs in Ministry of Sound .........no wonder fucking jammed packed with people.......even those who bought advanced tickets still had to queue to get in.....SUCKS!......... Re-entry also had to queue....... SUCKS!......... Nearly got lost from frens.......SUCKS!............But overall, still enjoyed myself!

RHCP tonight!! WOOoooo Yay!!

More and more unhappy....... dun know how long this thing can last........ have to act "normal" in people's eyes..... but secretly something is going on..........feel so strange and weird.......... first time ignoring and didnt really talk to him the whole night........ no phone or sms......... pissed with each other......... result of miscommunication............ doesn't feel anything........... dun care man........... now my turn to be "bo chap"!

PVD later tonight!........... RHCP morrow!.......... wow!! Fucking happening man! luckily got the tickets fast.... heard it has been sold out man!!

I always wonder why my colleague looks so stressed when she is in charge of handling the promo for an artiste........ Now I finally understand it!..............becos I have just went through the same situation as her last Friday!!.....I was so stressed planning the promo for them last week.......making sure that they are doing enough interviews for their trip to Singapore......... being meticulous in alot of things especially in whatever the artiste would be needing during the promo and their promo schedule,having to be sure that they are in time for their interviews....... luckily this time, they are not that big in Singapore yet...therefore there were no fans following us around or it will be a big headache for me..... their performance at HRC was fine but there were a few things which cocked up at the last min and I was so stressed up by them that when they were at their next performance at Esplanade, I was in a very depressed and foul mood.....felt like crying........ a few tears did started to flow down from my misty eyes but I tried to control it.......I felt that I have done a bad job in this promo which I'm handling it the first time.......and I badly wanted to prove myself at work......FUCK!!! and I was dam pissed with this promo becos fren was leaving on the same day as well but I couldnt send him off becos of this FUCKING stupid promo!!! ARRRGHHH!!!!! kept really quiet for the rest of their performance.... didnt want to talk to anyone.......super bad mood!

Anyway, went down to wine-bar after the whole promo ended with colleagues...... dam crowded as usual.....managed to find a seat after standing for quite awhile and my legs were aching in pain......drank two lychee martini (becos it's one for one for media =p), got quite high abit....... ate a hotdog........and felt much better.......went for supper....... walked the night through......talked rubbish with one another.......laughter........ fun.........and eventually ended up at Istana Park....... weird!

Fren has finally left after a week holiday here..... couldnt send him off on his departure day becos of work but he did came by at HRC to say goodbye....... I only managed to get a day off to accompany him...... But it has been a very stressful and busy for me last week trying to find time to bring him around Singapore and at the same time, managing my hectic work....... this is the "thrill" that I have to pay for...... spent quite alot on cabs as well to meet him and then back home in order to save time...... Actually I didnt really bring him around much for sight-seeing....... supposed to bring him to Sentosa but in the end he went there himself!......... felt abit bad about it....... I was too tired and by the time I met up with him, it was already in the late evenings as I gotta work during the day....... moreover, the weather was quite bad last week.....had been raining quite abit......... But I must say he was pretty smart about travelling around Singapore - he knew how to get to the MRT station from his hotel, buying the farecard and using the MRT, exploring Orchard Road, went to Sentosa, Chinese Gardens and Woodlands and finding his way back to his hotel........ bearing in mind that this is the FIRST time that he comes to Singapore and he did all these all by HIMSELF!!........But I did bring him to a few places like the Esplanade, Fullerton One, East Coast Beach etc.........and I even brought him to a game arcade (he loves playing games) to play "Crazy Taxi" and he beat me! Damn! But I beat him at "Daytona"! grin.....

brought him to eat Chinese, Malay, Japanese, Thai and Indonesian Food...... he has tried Hainese Chicken Rice, Satay, Tom Yum Soup, Sushi, Curry, Stingray etc..... it's so cute to see him using chopsticks (btw, he's an ang moh)........ and there is this time where he kept ordering and drank so much lime juice (he cant get any lime juice in UK) becos he was all heat up by the curry that he had eaten.......and I asked him why dont he get an ice water instead and he told me the lime juice was so nice that it doesnt matter as long it can cure his hotness laf.........We talked alot about our different culture, society and government as well..... It's really interesting and funny to learn from each other about these stuffs..... he joked that will the police catch him if he litters in Singapore and all men in Singapore carry a guy just becos they went to NS! laf........ He commented that Singapore is such a nice, clean, safe and warm country, totally different from UK........ felt abit sad though after he left..... he is such a sweet, kind, smart and polite guy! He got me a nice bracelet and some other stuffs from UK and most of the time, he paid for my food and drinks..... It will be another long time which I will see him again.... sigh......

Dad agreed to buy a new comp for me..... I have been talking about getting a new comp for a long time but till now I still havent got one yet sigh......mainly becos I got no money to get a good one myself (I dun wanna rely on my parents' money intially)...... then mum finally told dad about my recent activities - coming home late, sleeping late but waking up early in the mornings and having stressful and sickly face (which it was due to my studies as she thought I was out at fren's place doing my assignment becos my current comp was too slow) and Dad told me a few days ago about my activities and asked me to go and get a new comp which he will pay for it grin........ YAY!! FINALLY! Anyway I'm came back late not becos I was out doing my assignment, it was due to other reasons...... BUT I DID stayed up late at home to study and did my assignment a few times...... well, the late nights are all worth it I guess! grin.....

Anyway the buying of the new comp triggered a ticked off from my dad..... he was saying I had become so isolated from the family now - always pulling a long face, hiding in my room whenever I'm at home, bottling up my problems from them and giving rude answers whenever my parents ask me a question..... he said he didnt know what I was doing outside at all now becos I simply didnt want to communicate to them at all..... just like when I want to get a new comp, I didnt tell him till my mum told him about it..... I really dont know what's wrong with me now....... I simply doesnt feel like talking to them.....and whenever they talk to me, I feel very irritated and pissed up........most of my frens can really communicate well with their parents but for me, I found it rather hard and strange..... What's wrong with me man?!?!...... his ticked off nearly made me wanted to cry.... but I controlled my tears..... he said that my sister cared for the family so much now but I'm so different from her...... Fuck la.... if she's better than me then be it man.... I dont care... This is just me..... anyway it doesnt make any difference if I did exist in the family... I just want to be left alone at home..... I just dun feel like talking or miggling around.... and I HATE anyone who NAGS at me at my ears!! SHUT UP!!!

My exams last week was a BIG screwed up! The university changed the format and the questions of the exams last min without informing us.... I got a rude shocked when I saw the papers! Asking us to do a prosposal within 3 hrs with another 2 essay questions to go??..... What the hell!..... classmates were complaining about it after the exams...... I relied totally on the tips that the lecturer gave us and didnt study much from the notes (anyway I studied at the last min grin...) ..... the lecturer was so confident that the tips was really going to come out for the exams but in the end it was a surprised for us..... anyway received emails frm classmates recently that they might want to lodge a complaint to the school.... I'm totally supportive of it..... I'm really afraid of my result..... worst of all, I might did rather badly in my second assignment.... firstly, I'm not sure how to write it...... needs to use alot of thinking and reading to come up with the strategies, problems, solutions and evaluations.....and secondly, I'm waste so much time in thinking, partying and "nuaing" that I handed it late.... which I hope they wont deduct any marks for it as this might pull down my marks especially since the exams is fucked up....... I'm really praying hard this time.....God Bless!