My lil' brother is going to do my family proud and serve the country soon.... He will soon be a grown man and enter a new phase in his life instead of the small little kid that I always looked upon at him........ Though we didn't talk much at home, I can still remembered the time when we were younger and used to play together..... He used to be a cry baby, especially when my mum was not around, he would cry and asked for my mum till I had to sweet-talk him and cox him to sleep.... I also used to fetch him home when he was in kindergarten and the most vivid memory was I brought him to town to watch "Casper The Friendly Ghost" ......But that was many many years back...... I really can't imagined my one and only brother is growing up to be a man... I am feeling nostalgia..

Anyway, I am going to KL again.... This time am going up with frens for a short and buget holiday relaxation...... The last time i was up there, I didn't manage to check out some of the places.... Hence, this will be a good time to do it...... Due to the holiday peak season, nearly all the coaches are fully booked, but we managed to find one, although it's in the early morning... So incoincidentally, another fren of mine is going up as well, thus it will be fun with so many people ard... Going to try all the nice food there.... heh... can't wait man...

Got stupid assignments to finish up and I am still slacking away..... *sigh*

Got a couple of frens going away soon........ One going to China to work and the other going to Melb to get married and stay there for good......... How envious.... I wish I can be like them.... I must work towards my dream now...

Mac's MCPEPPER BURGER is BACK!! Yay!! It has always been my favourite! I love the pepperish taste with lots of onions and you can say that I am a hell of a hot and spicy person. heh. Just grab one on Friday before I went for my class... And earlier on, I ate Macs again! Two conservative days in a row! sShit man! Can't eat too much burgers or I will soon balloon into a humpty dumpty soon!

Anyway, my intensive class has finally ended today and next week will be back to as per normal class schedule. Got a 2000 words assignment to work on *sigh*... Gonna have a hard time again..... The past weeks had been raining quite frequently and the weather was so cooling Loved it!

Gotta continue reading my LOTR's book..... Left the last chapter to go.....

Sickness plagued me again..... I was infected with throat irritation, cough and a cold......... Don't know where I got them from but I was feeling uncomfortable a day after I came back from KL/Genting........ I hate to fall sick and the last time I was sick, which was sometime in Sep (a few days before my bday), I was like lying in bed and didn't have the energy to get up and do anything........ Though this time wasn't as serious as the previous, but I am already feeling very moody and drowsy......

I am having my intensive module this week becos my ozzy lecturer is here to teach us........ The worse thing is he doesn't supply us with any notes and we have to attend classes every day to take our own notes .... Moreover, there will be a case analysis in class each day........WTF!..... Well, I have been missing classes for the past 3 days, firstly due to my laziness and secondly, it was due to my work as well cos I gotta work on Sunday due to an event and last but not least, I don't really feel well to go to class. Anyway, this is the first time that i have encountered a class without any notes being distributed to us..... Then what's the point of paying so much for our fees!!... Anyhow, I still owed my school the last instalment for my sch. fees and this will be my LAST module and hence, they are chasing me for it but I just can't really care much abt it......... I will wait till next month or so before paying... Have to ask dad for the money again.. *sigh*

I'm gonna leave for KL this Sat after my paper....... Gonna spent my weekend there and check out the clubs and places of interest....... Especially their newly built mall - Times Square! Heard it's very magnificant with a roller coaster ride inside the mall.......
Sad to say, I have never been to KL before... so this will be an eye opener for me..... I know there is nothing great there but at least in future, when pple asked me if I have been there, I can said "YES!" instead of them giving me this weird look (it's like implying "Gosh! She has never been to KL?!?!?..... Is she a Singaporean? She has been to places far away but not KL?!?!...... So "Suan Ku"!).... Btw, I will be going up to Genting as this company trip is supposed to be going there instead of KL........... But I will only be up there on Sun evening for the company dinner......... KL is just part of our plan to do some shopping, drinks and food..... Didn't want to go to Genting but I guess I got no choice becos this is a company-paid trip .......
But one thing good abt this trip is that each one of us is given 200 ringit as our allowance besides our own expenditure.......hehehe....

Everything is supper busy this whole week again......... "BUSY" seems to be my clique word nowadays. heh... Gonna study for my exams and do some packing now....... My colleagues are leaving later at night while I can only leave on Sat due to my stupid exams..... Till then.

It's NOVEMBER! Can't believe it man! The mins and secs are tickling away in such a fast speed. So many things have happened and changed withing such a short period and it's coming to year end soon. Well, what do everyone especially those who have entered into the practical and cruel working world hope for during year end?!? Heh.... It's starts with a "B":...followed by by an "O"..... and then it's "N", "U" and ends with a "S"! Got it?!

Well, I have taken off my hair extensions..... and I got a new hair color last week.. Probably it's due to the influence of Halloween, I did streaks of PURPLE hair! Have always wanted to get Purple and now I finally got it! People have been commenting I look so funky now! hahahaa..... Anyway, I can't blog much... Got to rush to finish my powerpoint for my presentation this Sat.....and then prepare for exams next Sat and then I am off to KL/Genting....... Busy huh!

Before I end today's blog, I caught "Matrix Revolution" earlier with a fren. Both of us are so excited and ancitpated abt the movie that we can't wait any longer and went to catch the midnight show even though we knew that we are going to be "steamed bomb" tmr at work! The war between the machines and human-kind were spectacular! I think that's the only exciting part of the movie. The part where Agent Smith fought with Neo under the rain and in front of the hundred clones of Smith weren't really that great cos both characters looked so fake using computers to create them. But I like their fighting moves, which were so cool! Wish I could fight like them! hahahaha. ALrighty, blog later and off to work.. = (

Been getting quite a no. of messages from strangers on Friendster...... some wanting to be frens, some wanting to chat with me....... some complimenting on my hair extension........there's one who even wanted to ask me out for drinks! hahahaa..... How lame! Well, I'm not interested anyway... There's nothing great abt Friendster I think...... It's like promoting yourself on the net and inducing pple to know you...... I thought isn't it supposed to be like a community whereby you can communicate wit frens and look for long-lost childhood/pri./sec. frens?!?!?..... Guess I'm just being simple-minded?!.. But no matter what, I am still on friendster.... This shows I am a lame person... hah!

Have been too lazy and busy to update my blog lately.... So many things to do at work plus school work is not helping much either...... That's why I am up so early today to finish my bloody assignment to be handed in later this evening..........

Anyhow, I brought another new brand of colour contact lenses yesterday........ Tried out Fresh Looks but the lenses were uncomfortable and my eyes were red and watery everytime I put them in........Thus went to get another new brand which was recommended by the salesperson........... Cost me $42 bucks man.......... But I finally realised it's so troublesome to wear a contact lens....... and I really felt lucky to have perfect eyesight! = )

I think I am getting tanner....... It's all thanks to the hot and sunny weather last Friday when I was down at Sentosa..........I didn't even put much sun-tanned lotion on my body but just afew mins of staying out in the sun, the effects were showing on my body......... Anyway, this will make my frens happy cos they have been teasing about my fairness previously........I have always been quite a fair person and I still prefer myself to look fair.......... Well, just give me a few months time and I think the tanned will fade to my original color... heh..

Money is getting low again this month.......... Maybe it's because I spent too much during my BKK trip........ Gotta bear for a few more days before it's pay day....... I need to change my hair color.......... Wanna get some outrageous colour this time........ But it's gonna cost me a bomb......*sigh*

Part III

6/10/03 (Monday) - Day 4
This is the day that we are all supposed to say goodbye to this amazing place!
9.30 am - All of us woke up at this time again and couldn't take our last breakfast at the hotel.
Our flight is at 2.40pm and the coach will be coming to pick us up at 11.30 am at the lobby. However, most of us still wanna check out some shops before we left and hence, all decided if we couldn't make it in time back to the hotel, then we gals will take a cab ourselves to the airport and will meet the guys there.
10.15 am - The guys went to Pattunam market while we gals just went to Siam Square and Siam Discovery Centre for our last shopping spree. Ate A&W breakfast at Siam Square. Finally got to eat my favourite waffle with scrambled eggs!
11.15 am - Called the guys to inform them we won't be able to make it back to take the transfer and surprisingly, they also informed us they can't make it too. Haha.. Who says guys are not a shopaholic! So we gals will meet them 12.30 pm at the hotel lobby to take our luggages.
12.30 pm - Back to hotel for the gather.
1.30 pm - Reached airport for check-in and have a light lunch at BK.
2.30 pm - Inside the departure area and all of us were rushing to board our flights.
2.40 pm - Goodbye to BKK
(Slept in the flight. Was so damn tired.)
6.00 pm - Home Sweet Home

End of my wonderful trip!

Part II of my BKK's trip

5/10/03 (Sunday) - Day 3
9.30 am - Damn! All of us woke up late and missed our breakfast! But think the guys managed to rush down to grab some food!(The complimentary breakfast ended at 9.30am!)
10.30 pm - Reach MBK. Wanted to have A&W's breakfast (missed the waffler with scramble eggs!) but couldn't find one at the mall, hence in the end, in order not to delay any more time, we had KFC instead.
11.15 pm - Finished breakfast and fag, we split into 2 gps again to conquer the 7 storeys mall.
2.00 pm- Decided nothing much at MBK for gals, just bought some local products back for colleagues plus cheap lingeries and toiletries and went over to Siam Square (By then, I kindda regretted to have bought the local products cos they were heavy and it's cumbersome to carry such a heavy load for shopping. Moreover, my hands were aching and my legs were asking for mercy from the walking)
6.00 pm - Can't take anymore of the walking and decided to go for my haircut at one of the salons. (Didn't go back to the one that I went to during my last trip becos it was a distance away from Siam Square and anyway, new ones might be better than old)
7.00 pm - Finally got my hair cut... It's was just a simple trim anyway... wanted to cut a slant fringe but think the guy couldn't understand what I was trying to tell him due to communication barrier (Guess he couldn't understand English much!)..... Luckily I didnt do any hair color there or I might turn out to be an alien! haha...
7.30 pm - Reached back hotel to put our heavy stuffs (The guys are grumbling and complaining about their hungriness and our shopping.. Men!! Can't stand them! They will never understand gals! Just like we gals can never figure out their thoughts =p)
8.00 pm - All of us took a cab to Chinatown to have our dinner again cos everyone of us missed the sumptuous seafood and cheap price!
9.30 pm - Finished our dinner and we decided to go to Kao Shang Road (place where backpackers like to stay and there are hair plaiting, extensions, pubs etc.)
10.00 pm - Arrived at destination. There was a flea market there and everyone of us were
looking around... Think the place is very fascinating and amazing cos u can see alot of foreigners (esp ang mohs and Japanese) hanging ard the area, there were buskers as well... lots of grungy, lay-back locals hanging there (Some maybe high on drugs!)....It's just a cool place to nua...especially for a lazy person like me!
10.45pm - Did my hair extensions
11.15pm - Found a massage parlour to enjoy our traditional Thai Massage! This is the first time that I'm trying it..... Was abit afraid, so only did for 1/2 hr but it was relazing in a way too and not to say, CHEAP!..... Paid 100 Baht for the 30 mins! 2 of my gal pals still went for the foot reflexalogy after that but I didn't dare to do it as I'm a person who is afraid of tickle and the thought of probably wrying in pain during the session, just put me off! So my guy buddy and me went to a nearby pub to chill out while waiting for them.
12.30 am - While at the pub, this swedish guy came over to ask for a lighter and he chatted us up. Think he was probably drunk anyway becos he started talking non-stop and asking us alot of questions on Singapore, telling us he is coming for a holiday here and blah blah... Said he has been working in BKK for 2 years .. blah blah blah.... He was just bull-shitting I think...
1.30 am - Left the pub and headed back to the hotel.
2.00 am - Started to pack our stuffs into our luggages and bags...... Pack, Unpack and then now need to pack again! I hate packing!
3.30 am - Sweet Dreams

I can't believed that my BKK's trip was over in a flash....... Last week during this time, I was still enjoying myself there..... And now I'm back in Sg......Anyway, I have been too lazy to update abt my trip.... Below will be just a brief outline of what I did....

3/10/2003 (Friday) - Day 1
8.30 pm - Meeting time with frens at T1
9.50pm - Took off time to BKK from Changi Airport

*The subsequent timing will be according to Bangkok's time (1 hr behind Sg)
11.05 pm - Reached Bangkok's Airport
12.00 am - Arrived at Hotel for check-in
12.30 am- Took a cab to Chinatown to have supper (The flight food sucks big time and most of us didn't ate much). Walked awhile at Chinatown, looking for a good stall to wack their seafood!..... Had barbecue pawns, Tom-Yum Soup, Crabmeat Fried Rice, Crabmeat Omelette and Fried Kang Kong, some beers and Juices..... After that, we still proceed to have Shark Fins and Bird Nest Soup! ( We eat till our stomach nearly burst! But all these delicacy were so CHEAP in BKK which we can't help but just eat! heh!)
2.30am - Reached back Hotel to rest for the big day tomorrow at Cha-Tu-Chak!

4/10/2003 (Saturday) - Day 2
9.15am - Had breakfast at the hotel
9.30am - Ready to go to Cha-tu-chak
(Took the MRT and it cost 30 Baht to reach our destination (Mo Chit Station)
10.00 am - Reached Cha-Tu-Chak Market
We started walking from 10.00 am till 6.00pm, splitting into 2 groups - each gp cosists of 3 gals and 3 guys....So many things to see and buy - clothes, shoes, accessories, sovenours, home decor etc... and everything over there was so CHEAP!!.... But still, bargaining was still inevitable becos it's so common to haggle there....Couldn't help feeling sweaty and hot from the walking, body was covered with dirt becos of the weather and human jam.....Mouth was dry and we kept buying water to quench our thirst...
6.00pm - Took a train back to our hotel again to drop our stuffs and had a hot bath before we proceed to Siam Square to have dinner.
(Before we wanted to leave Cha-Tu-Chak, it started to pour heavily and we tot we r gonna stuck there but the bizzare thing was that it stopped after 5 mins.)

7.15pm - Started our next destination to Siam Square for dinner (Everyone was grumbling about being hungry from the day's walking and couldn't wait to eat)
7.30pm - After looking for a good place to eat for a few mins, everyone couldn't take it anymore and just went to Chester's Fast Food Restaurant to have dinner.....Btw, Chester is something like Corona Chicken in Sg - it's Fast Food Chicken Rice!)......
8.30pm - Finally filled up our stomach and energy, we walked ard Siam Square for awhile...
(Saw a fight there - a group of youngsters were beating up a Thai gal and the poor gal was lying on the floor covered with blood on her face... How scary!)

9.30pm - Left Siam Swuare and took a cab - all 6 of us squeezed into the cab, to Pa-Pong
(nothing much at Pa-Pong...... But lots of clubs with Thai gals wearing luminous bikinis, dancing at the pole, and attracting men to go into the club.....Anyway, the place is famous for that anyway... We were all feeling bored with the place and then we decided to check out another local night market, recommended by one of my frens and so off we went. Took a Tu-Tu there for 150 baht, with 6 of us squeezing into it again! Had nvr took a Tu-Tu before though I hv been to BKK twice and so it was an experience for me!)
11.00 pm - Reached the night market and it's walking time again! Though this market wasn't as big as Cha-Tu-Chak, but all of us were badly drained out from our earlier walked and hence most of our legs have started to ache and feeling the strain...
12.30am - Took a cab back to our hotel to rest cos none of us had any more energy left to go clubbing which we initially wanted to do...Hence we decided to grab some drinks, chips and ice-cream to just start our mini party at our hotel rooms...
1.30 am - Went over to the guys' room after taking my bath to talk, joke and drink.
3.00 am - Back to gals' room for the night...

Yoga sucks yesterday......... Didn't have the enthusiasm and energy to do it....... The 1 hr felt like it was a bloody long thing........ Guess probably i still haven't recovered my tiredness from my BKK trip...heh... Maybe I'm just too nua.. haha..

My new hairstyle from Bangkok...

My workstation:



Stack of CDs on my Desk!



The rubbish sticking on my wall! See the middle finger pointing in front?!?

It's PAY DAY today!! Wooo hooo....... This is the happiest time of the month after working hard for 5 days a week, 8 hrs a day and sometimes even more...

I received my new driving license last Sat...... It was personally hand-delivered by Mr. Postman to me........... Didn't know it's going to be a registered mail....... Anyway, my new license is so sparking new and shiny with a coloured pic of myself on it....... Different from the old torned, crampled, luminated card...... Now I don't have to bring my IC out anymore... The license can serve a new identity card for me.

Counting down to my BKK trip : 2 days

Bored! Bored! Bored! It's strange when all of a sudden I feel so free...... I feel so relaxed from my stressful assignments and studies........ I'm having my 1 week's break now and there is nothing for me to do right now............Usually at night, I will be stressing over finishing my assignments but this time, I have nothing to worry about........ How bizzard! But it does feels good to have nothing on your mind......... I need to finish up "The Return of The Phonex" book.... Left about 1/4 pages to go.......Gonna read it before I go bed later....

Yesterday, I caught "Just Married" on my DVD..... and this afternoon - "The Bulletproof Monk".....Maybe I should watch another DVD later...... Or maybe I will go down for a fag with a fren..... It's good to have a fren who is staying near you so that you have someone to hang out with when you are bored or need a fag...... Especially frens whom are close to you......... This fren of mine happens to be my good fren's bf as well..... hence you can see the bond there......heh.

Counting down to my BKK trip......... I'm not gonna be bored with my work this week becos I have my trip to look forward to............... Has applied for 2 days leave and how wonderful it is to get a short break after so long.......... Plus how nice it is to be back to BKK again!........ WANNA do a lot of things and NEED to get alot of things...........Am contemplating whether to get a tattoo there as well.......... That will depend on how much the design that I want will cost me.......... I shall see how it goes... Maybe I will come back with a new me...... Or maybe I will not.

Finally went down to library to return the book....... However, I couldn't get the fine paid as the book was under my classmate's name..... Anyway, managed to check the cost for the fine... Apparantly, it's only $1.50 (Phew!) and I got to know that the fine per day for an expired book is only $0.15!... This means that I have not returned the book for 10 days after it's date due........ Oh well, the fine is not expensive anyway.....=p

I'm getting my full strength back except for the irritating cough that keeps me feeling weak sometimes...........But I will get well very soon... Yes I will especially before my BKK trip! I shall go and watch my DVD now....... hmm..... which one should I watch?

a) Lord of The Ring?
b) Harry Potter?
c) Bulletproof Monk?
d) Too Fast 2 Furious?
e) Just Married?
f) Matrix Reloaded?

hmm.......

My body was over-powered by sickness (sore-throat, fever, flu, cough) last Thursday night.... And it didn't subside till today........ I'm still not totally in full strength yet but I am feeling much better......... Took mc on Friday and spent the whole day sleeping after taking my medication (thanks to the pills and syrups that I have to take)........... And what a good time to fall ill when I was going to have my exams on Sat's morning!!........... Didn't get to study much as well........... Was god damn worried that I couldn't make it to my examination venue....... Eventually I pull myself and make it to the end........ Hope I didnt do too badly as I just wrote whatever it came to my blur mind......... Supposed to go down to pay my flight ticket after that however I was just too weak to do anything that I had to ask my fren to do it for me......... What's more........ my frens had already made plans to hold a bbque for my bday on the same evening..... By hook or my crook, I just couldn't let these stupid viruses controlled me and spoilt my bday this year.......hence, after some rest, I went ahead to the bbque, not eating all those yummy oily, fatty food but could only nibble my plain porridge with prickled vegetables..... All thanks to the powerful sickness I got! Well, actually i didn't make any plans for my bday this year... firstly, i am broke to have a celebration and secondly, there is nothing to celebrate about since I am not getting younger..... Anyway, it is so sweet and thoughtful of my frens to make the bday plans and got me a cake and prezzies.... Thank you! Very touched indeed! I think it has been awhile since i last fell sick and hence, suddenly when the sickness comes it's quite a major one......

Had a small garage sale at fren's place on Sunday morning and this is the worse business that i ever had! We didnt get to sell anything at all for the whole morning but only a $5 bag!! haha!!...... We just basically sat there talking, joked, looked at our past photos and laughed at our younger and innocent days.......... More of a chit-chat gathering session rather than a garage sale...... Probably, Sunday is a bad days to hold such sale..... oh well.....

Things are not going smoothly at work.......... Many things need to be done and I am facing some problems as well..........

A library book which my classmate has helped me to borrow has expired a week ago and i need to get it done asap as she seems pissed that I have hold it up........ Don't know how much will be the overdue charges but I will pay for it anyhow....Finally got my expired licence changed last week and hopefully, I will be able to see and get my new driving license soon..

I have been passed a whole stack of CDs from my boss to take a listen to today....... They are being sent over from overseas label and some have already made a name for themselves in their home country..... But the label is trying to market them in Singapore..... Brought home 2 CDs from this band called "Kick The Kangaroo"
and the tracks are playing now while I am typing my blog...... They are a 5-piece band who hails from Denmark (not Australia) and they have this very easy listening Ozzy pop rock kind of music....... hmm....... Their band name sounds kindda unique too.....hmm.....

It's been such a long time.... Didn't feel like blogging for the past weeks....... And not many peeps read or are interested in my blog anyway.... Well, have taken off the tag board since I felt it's redundant in my blog... But the comments thingy will still remains........ I'm sick of the design of my blog.... Wanna change into something new...... Haven't got the time to do it....... Will wait till I finishes my exam next week.....Time flies by in a flash..... I still have 2 modules to bear thru before I am done with this paper chasing thingy........ Will plan for a back-pack trip to oz after I have finished..... which is probably early Jan next year......

Anyhow, alot of things have been happening........ I'm going Bangkok very soon...... Everything is almost confirmed...... Just need to pay money and get my tickets.......Have been anticipating for it........ Finally after so long I'm going back there again....... This time will be different from the last........ I wanna go back to the hair salon where the hair cut for ladies is dirt cheap (think it's only S$15/6 bucks)........ I wanna get hair colour done at the salon as well...... I wanna go Cha-tu-chak......... Siam SQuare........... MBK.........and buy nice addidias shoes........ Really really can't wait..........*grin*

I think I am a totally changed person now........ I'm already learning to take things easy...... No more depression for me........... No more sad/regretful thoughts for me.............. I'm accepting my life as it is......... Maybe it's due to the yoga that I am currently learning which helps to change my thoughts?!?....... *smirk*........ Nah, it's just a lame reason.......... I am planning to open a shop of my own in a few years time before I hit 30........... And I wanna get a car too............ It's not easy but I will try..........

My Bday is coming soon......... it's scary to think that I have already entered my mid-life........ How many more years are remaining for me before I will leave this world......... I don't know, probably god will know......

I AM ALL DRY UP!! How Pathetic I am! Got to be in this state for 1 more week before pay day arrives...... I guess I gotta starve myself and eat "grass" for this week.....

Need to get started on my work....... Cum'on..... DO YOUR WORK!......... STOP PROCASTINATING!!...

Even though I am in a depressing state, life still has to go on no matter what (am I trying to be optimistic here?!? )........ Need to get my school assignment started asap....... Gathering some research info on India....... Have to write about its culture, people, ways of communication etc........ 7 pages report......... Deadline by first week of Sep......... Only 3 weeks left and I am still procastinating......... *sigh*......... I can't do this again or I will become mad when I can't get it done on time.............Another group assignment to hand in too......... PLUS a presentation.........I REALLY have to start something NOW.

Anyway, healthy lifestyle seems to be the "IN" thing now............. Have been asked by a fren to sign up for YOGA lessons together.......... Class starting tomorrow.......... Will last for 3 months........... Been told that learning YOGA is not only a form of relaxation to free your mind and soul but also to reduce your body mass.......... Hmmm.......... That's really worth trying since I have never learnt YOGA before......... Have also been playing badminton with frens ........... Hah! When did I become so health conscious?!?........... Anyhow, whatever!..........Healthy living here I come..

Last week was a very unlucky and bad week for me........ Especially from Wed onwards........ Things cropped up badly at work and I was all messed up and stressed............ What's worse was I lost my hp on Thurs!!.......... I couldn't recall where did I misplace my phone and the next minute I realised it was gone!............. Went thru hassle to search high and low for it and I knew in the end that someone must have picked it up becos when I tried calling my no., it was being switched off............. Damned that stupid feller who is using my Samsung T100 now!..........This is the first time that I have lost my mobile and all my contacts are literally gone.......I felt totally lost with no phone by my side and I need it urgently for my work purpose......... It's so strange to know that I can leave without a phone a few years ago and just relied on public phone but now, due to the advanced in technology, I came to realise that hp is a very important part of my life........Anyway, left with no choice, I went to M1 shop to get a new SIM card the next day and also purchase a new hp.......... Wasted $500 plus for it.......... Now I'm the owner of a Panasonic GD88
!

Had a badminton session wit my frens earlier on......... It feels good to get some exercise especially when I have been such a lazy person... I should probably do it every week..... Though I am not very pro in the game, but then it's great to be sweating and working out...

Anyway, went for a JB trip on Sat..... had my dinner at the famous Bamboo Restaurant again......... Everyone of us was so hungry after all the walking that we finished every dishes within 15 mins...... Bought some durians home as well..... Cost me 24 Ringgit for 3 kilos of durians..... But they were good.... The causeway was bloody jammed on our way back... Well it is the usual case anyway......... Had a splitting headache after that......... And worse still, there is no more panadol at home.......... In the end, fell asleep on my bed in order to subdue the pain.... I hate headaches..... It makes your mind malfunctioning and couldn't think straight...Work tomorrow again.... Monday Blues..

I'm craving for love being showered over me............. But then again, I think I must be strong ............. Be independent enough to stand on my own without anything.............. I can't stand the sight of him anymore.............. It's just making me miserable and depressed............... I need to find a way out.............. To get out of there and start anew.............

There are so many different kinds of men in this world............. Some are basically just a women-player who likes to go KTV, gambling, alcohol, massage, club-hoppers to check out chicks, one-night stands etc...... This kind really irks me.......... Another is a Mr Nice-guy kind who already is going to be extinct in this world - they are patient, soft-hearted, understanding, tolerant and kind towards women, the ideal man that a gal needs......... Too bad, I haven't experienced such a guy yet.......... Another kind is simply just want to enjoy life, fuck-care attitude, isn't interested in gals at all........... ....Have seen a few of this but then again, they are either gays or bisexuals..... *sigh*.............. I think all the good guys in this world are either dead or taken up.

Just came back from Zouk-Out.......... Whole body is sticky and dirty........... ..... Was feeling hungry after all the drinks and boogie....... Wobble down a packet of chips and 2 durians ......... Feeling guilty about it......
Anyway, didn't really have a good sleep since Friday's night.........My itinery for the day was all packed..........Was supposed to study on Friday's night but in the end, fell asleep and woken at 6 am........ rush thru my notes.......... Went for my exams in the morning, then lunch and window-shopping wit classmates after that....... then went home... nap for 20 mins.........then woken up by fren's call..........rush to prepare for dinner with frens at Marina Bay (yeah! Missed that! Haven't been there to eat the steamboat for awhile!).........then to Marina Square to load ourselves up wit alcohol (all of us wanna get high before we go in)........ proceed to Zouk-Out.............Drinking and lancing (drinks sucks, not strong enough) ....... Met my colleagues while there........ Hang out with them......... Left Zouk-Out..........Went to S11 for chilled drinks again............... and FINALLY home sweet home.........Now I need a good bath before I go for my dreamland.

Oh ya.. before I go..... I need to blog this first......... I had one of my embarrassing moments of my life today............. While having my exams........... my stomach made a very loud rumbling noise...........And it's not once......... but TWICE............ at different times.......... And I was sitting right in front of the exam room..........And the invesgilator was right in front of me......... I didn't dare to look at him.......... My face was root-red and I wish I can find a hole and hide myself.......... I'm sure those sitting near me would hear the noises..........I pretended to continue writing my answers, but I felt so embarrased....... My stomach always have this kind of funny noises in the morning........ Guess too much air in there........ Or maybe I'm hungry? heh.. I think I wanna see a doctor soon..

Why does the world has to revolve around money?!?............. I don't understand at all........... This is such a sickening world!.......... I NEED lots of money............. BUT then........... *sigh*................ I rather live in the magical world.... I'm going to play my diablo II to forget all my worries.

Someone gave me a Queen Amidalia (Natalie Portman)'s figurine to cheer me up........ He told me the figurine symbolised "grrl power'.......... I don't get what he meant by that and also the reason for giving the figurine to me but then I am quite touched by that........ He is a Star Wars' collectors and he is really rare that he will give one of his favourite figurine to me........... Oh well......

My workplace might have some changes soon......... I just came to know about to news yesterday............. I don't know whether is it good or bad.......... We shall see.....

I am sick of having relationship...... Sick of not being appreciated by things that I have done.......... Sick of having to spare the feelings and thoughts of someone else............. Sick of having to give in for quarels........ Sick of getting the indirect hints............. Sick of guessing what the other party is thinking..................Sick of understanding the person............ Sick of apologising things which I think I am not in the wrong............ Sick of ........ arrrghghgh.....whatever!........... I just hate relationship now!........... I might turn into a nun soon...

I had a big quarel with one of my colleague yesterday.... Big as in really MAJOR kind of heated exchange of words....This is the first time that I have expressed my anger so openly and expressively in office........ After that, I went out to the toilet and cried my hearts out........ I cried becos I am seriously angry beyond words but at the same time, sad and sorry for myself that I am treated like shit in the office........ That asshole is a mother^%&*@*$#@ with his balls hiding inside his ass!!!! (Sorry for being so crude and vulgar here! But this is the only place where I can show my own true emotions and feelings here...cos it is MY blog!!).......... Can't imagine having to face him 5 days a week, 9 hrs a day for the next....hmm.... dun know how long I will last also..... Anyway, I had a really bad day at work and the only thing that can relieve me from all these stuffs is going for retail therapy..Blah

My fren brought his golden retriever out for dinner on Sat, and to admit honestly, I have a phobia towards animals even if they are harmless ones like dogs or cats..... however, I'm surprised at myself that I stroked, fed and touch my fren's dog that day...... I felt a sudden liking towards it...... I have managed to curb half of my fear factor..... I even have a sudden urge to get myself a small puppy..... Dogs are known to be loyal to humans..... At least, they won't break your heart and I can have a companion to keep me company when I am sad, depressed, lonely etc...

Anyhow, last Friday's Zouk-In was boring..... Place was bloody packed........I wonder if this year's Zouk-Out will be better than the previous year..... A new venue to hold the 2 days event for this year.......... Definately a refreshing change.......But I'm definately gonna missed the first day.

I'm feeling lazy over the weekend..... supposed to go jogging and sun-bathing with 2 of my guy frens but in the end, I slept my afternoon away and only managed to get my butt out of the house in the evening when the sun was going to set.... I can never get my exercise regimen started..... I'm incurable..... I'm just a lazy ass...

I have missed my class for 2 weeks plus...... It seems that I have lost my motivation and drive to study.......... Moreover, school fees is long overdue but I haven't opened my mouth and get the money from my dad yet............. I always have difficulty in asking parents for money......... I felt embarassed and a burden to them, having to take their money even after I have started working...... But then again, I dun have much saving to sponsor myself thru school.......... Hence, can only depend on them.... *sigh*........... Felt like giving up...... But then, there are only 3 more modules to go before I FINALLY can get that paper qualification........*sigh*...... I am stressed!

OMG! I appeared in U-Weekly together with one of my company's artiste. It's a small pic though but then....... Oh Gosh... Oh Gosh.....

Wow! Blogger has a new design and look.... Splendid!

I'm busy......... Yes...... Very BUSY indeed.......... It should be a good sign I guess......... BUSY is always better than iddling/doing nothing.

My money is running very low this month.......... I must admit that I am a very spendthrift person ever since I started working ....... Whenever I feel stressed or sad, the only thing that can make me happy is to buy new things.......... That's why retail therapy works very well for me............. But I have to learn to save more......... Haven't been saving alot over the past months.........No more spending for me!

This is one thing that makes me a happy angel!!........ I bought Harry Potter's fifth book yesterday!!.......... And at a discounted price!!..........Yay!!!.......... I'm on cloud nine now!!............. But the fifth book is so thick that I don't think I have the time to read it so soon...... I gotta make more time to myself ........ Can't wait to start reading it...... Once you open, you can't stop it!... *grin*

I was informed I am entitled to half day leave becos I was working over the weekend......... Heh!.......... Well at least I know I will have sometime to rest after all the hard work........ But my heavy workload will not diminished any sooner as I got another promo to handle in August........ And I got about a month plus left to co-ordinate and plan everything........ This promo will be hard to handle I must say....... Very different from the usual one........ I'm getting butterflies in my stomach now......

It's been a long time folks! A long week of not blogging at all.......... Too many things happened over the past week........... Things that made me depressed, isolated, stressed, disillusioned, unmotivated etc....... Didn't get much sleep as well........ Numerous things on my mind.........

Anyway, my pc was spoilt a few days ago and all thanks to my stupid sister!..... She wanted to use the internet to pay her bills and in the end, unsure of what she did to it and my networking was not working at all when I tried to connect to the internet all that......... The best part was when I asked her what she had clicked on my pc....... She just shrugged and said she didn't do anything except for switching it on......If she didn't click on anything, do you think my pc would just fail on me!!.......... What lame excuse!!!..........Super pissed with her and I'm not gonna let her use my pc again!!!...... Didn't know she is so dumb!!!........ Asked a fren cum neighbour over to help me solve it but still couldn't work......... Finally, I formatted my whole hardware and now all my mp3 files are GONE!!......... That's the only way to solve my pc as I need to use it to do my school assignment........ Now I have to redownload everything again!

Finally got the chance to post my pics after such a long time...... My fren took the 2 pics using his nokia camera phone yesterday...... Resolution not that good and I think I looked awful.....

I dread going to work nowadays......... I just hate everything about it.............*sigh*......... Depression is hitting on me..........*sigh*......... I wish I can just leave my work and go somewhere else...........BUT only if the opportunity does fall on me........I need money to survive........... and to fulfill all my wishes............. Arrrghhh!!!......... Why does the world revolve around money?!?!?...............

What is love?............. Does true love exist in this world?..........Love is such a complicated thing.............Love is blind...........Love can be painful........... Love can make you lost..........Love can make you smile........... Love changes everything......... Love can make you do sacrifices .............When you love a person, you don't have to find an answer or explanation to know why you love him/her............. It's just in your heart........... No matter how bad/bastard/evil the person is, you still want to be with him and care for him always.............. you just want to see him/her happy..........and you will always stand by him.............I'm feeling nostalgia now........ *sigh*

Caught the MTV Movie Awards 2003 last afternoon on MTV channel 21............... It's hosted by Sean William Scotts and Justin Timberlake this year............. I must say that Sean is a funny dude............. He made me giggle with his funny gestures and actions......... I am really impressed by the creativity that MTV has used for the award this year....... The introductory of each award is accompanied by comics character of Sean and Justin as some super heros........... It's really cool........... There are performances by 50 Cents, Pink and T.A.T.U........... Am wondering whether T.A.T.U are really a lesbian duo or are they just a marketing gimmic to wow the audience......... They really dont look like a lesbian to me

Just got my new module's schedule earlier........... Got an individual assignment to do again!.......... Well I have guess so anyway........... This will take up 40% of my module while the rest is allocated for my examination........... It's gonna strain away all my strength again.......... *sigh*.......... I gotta hang on for another 3 more modules and everything will be over.

I have been told that I will be handling this artiste from Belgium in August........... Getting abit nervous about it.............. This is the first time that I'm really handling a western artiste............. I have to show him and his assistant around town as well......... I hope he is not demanding like some other artistes.........And I am really afraid I cant do a good job.......... NO!!......... I HAVE to prove myself and my worth.............. I HAVE TO MAKE IT!!!..........

*sigh*........ My frens have advised me not to resign so soon becos economy is really bad now......... It's so hard to find a job nowadays........... Even degree graduates can't get a job now........... *sigh*............. I'm having depression............ I really don't know what to do man!............ Can somebody please advise me?!?!?!?........... *sigh*

Feeling disillusioned with work........... Have come to realise the reality, competitive and cruelity of the working world........... "Only the smartest and strongest will survive"............. You always have to keep a look-out behind you........... You never know who is going to stab you with a sharp knife and make you fall and scramble.......... How depressing the world is turning into.......... *sigh*

FINALLY finished my exams last Sat........ Have been so busy last week........ Trying to juggle work with study......... I spent the whole of last Friday to finish up my assignment and also at the same time, study for exams........ Didnt really manage to study much in the end......... Initially have set a target for myself to finish everything before 12 midnight so that I have the whole night to study.......... In the end, only managed to finish it at 7 am in the morning.......... After that, I just scanned thru my notes and text.......No time to really read thru all the details........ Don't ask me how I can do that........... It is really stressful........ I didnt understand why I took so bloody long to finish my whole assignment........
Well, I nearly fell asleep during my exams....... Guess fatigue is slowly taking over my mind as I didnt sleep a wink at all....... Am I make of metal or steel?!?!?........ I really dont know........ But I'm glad I finally hang on to the last min......... My new module is coming soon again......*sigh*.......... Can't wait for all these to end!

After the exams ended, went JB with frens to relieve myself (Can't believe I still have the energy to go!)......... Dropped over at Holiday Inn and City Square........ Both malls are jam-packed with muggards........... There were problem in finding parking lots in the carpark............ Saw alot of Singapore cars......... Guess Singaporeans are going there for their shopping as usual....... Had a sumptious dinner there....... Went to this famous restaurant called "Bamboo Restuarant" to have Herbal Chicken (That's their specialty. They have the best herbal chicken that I have ever eaten!), stir-fried Frog's legs, Hotplate Oyster with Eggs, Hotplate Otak with Egg etc..... All 4 of us finished everything up...... We were bloody hungry man......... At least, I pampered myself after working so hard for the previous night!..... Really enjoyed the meal!

Just finished my presentation yesterday....... Left only a few days to study for exams........ Still need to touch up on my assignment before the date-due.........*sigh*..........Not enuf time!

My colleague bought a very cool Wolverine character....... And I'm looking at it now while typing my blog...... *grin* Yes, it is placed at my desk because Wolervine is my favourite X-Men's character....... *grin*

Fark!..... I have been sleeping so early for the past few days.......... Supposed to stay up to do my work but in the end, I ended up falling asleep and only waking up at about 7 or 8 in the morning which is just about time to get ready for work........ *sigh*......... Luckily, my presentation has been pushed back to next Tuesday..... So that leaves me a few more grace days to finish everything......... Hope I pull through..

I'm struggling with my assignment now......... This is the result of procastinating too much............. Presentation this Thurs........... Deadline next Saturday............... Exams next Saturday...........And I am only about half-done..........This weekend gonna burn becos of work.......... I HATE it!!..........When do all these have to crash together??......... I want to be like No Doubt - "Running"...........I'm running...... running.........The best that we can.......... If we gonna make it..........

I am having my mood swings....... One moment I can be happy, joking and laughing and then the next moment, I can be all moody and keeping quiet at a corner........... I don't know why I'm behaving like this .............. I really don't know............. Something must be wrong with me.............. I always let my emotions get the better of me.............. Yesterday tears just flowed down because something triggered some sad memories of my past............. Then just now, I just suddenly poured the alcohol on the floor..........*sigh*........ It's so hard to explain the reasons why............ And I'm suddenly feeling sick of my life........... Sick of everything here.......... Sick of working.......... Sick of studying.............. Sick of being plastic to everyone.............. Sick of having to please everyone................ *sigh*.............

I'm so sick of all the mainstream commercial pop/rock songs that I'm plugging in all the oldies and gold hits now............. It does brought back some old memories.........

Time is running out......... And I'm not even half done on my assignment.......... This is shitty!

My fren is selling printed first hand tees for S$20........ I'm helping him to spread the word around...... There are the likes of Blur, Manic Street Preachers, The Strokes, The Vines, Placebo, White Stripes etc.... Below are only a few designs that I managed to upload onto my blog...... There are still alot more designs.............. let me know if anyone is interested ya......

The stupid weather is bloody warm and hot nowadays....... Didnt feel a least bit of coolness even after a nice cold bath.......... The warmness is so unbearable that it made me hard to fall asleep now........ Arrrghghghh.............. I'm going to get heat stroke soon........... Think the weather must be having it's PMS........... I hope it will get over it soon..........

Reloaded was great I guess.......... The special effects were definately remarkable and blow-minding......... I would love to have 'Neo's fighting skills........... He seems to be a mutant than human........ He can stop bullets; sense things, jump and dodged punches and kicks......... And the funny and amazing part is he can even fly like a superman!..............No wonder he is The One!.............. However, some parts were abit too thereotical and confusing.......... Probably becos I didnt watch the first movie and that's why I didnt really understand how The Matrix came about....... Yes, I'm a fool for missing the first movie and instead went to catch Reloaded first............ Hah!....... Anyway, I'm going to watch the part one on my DVD player later........ Heh........

I felt like getting a new phone again!.......... My current phone has only been with me for about 4 months......... Damn!............. Why am I so spendthrift?!?!?........

I'm going to watch Matrix Reloaded later!........... Can't wait to check out the scene where Keanu Reeves kick-butted hundreds of Agent Smith's clones.......... Super Cool and amazing!

I just realised that there is a lump growing in my ass!........... I'm not kidding!!............. I felt a pain in my ass last week and didnt really take noticed of it till a few days ago, the pain was abit unbearable becos it kindda...........errrrrrrrr............. to put it in a nice way - obstruct my "business".............. And I went to check in the mirror and found a lump there.......... This is so gross and aweful!! ............. Told my sis about it and she advised me to see a doctor soon.......... But then again, the doctor near my hse is a male one and I'm kindda shy to let a guy examine my inner body parts especially.............. you know............... Well...........errr....... Anyway, I will need to see a doctor soon............. NOT a MALE doctor but a FEMALE one will be better.............

2 more weeks to my doom day.......... How?!?!?.............. I'm only one quarter done............ I'm really dead this time...........

I just woke up awhile ago........ It's 6.00 am in the morning now........... Have slept for about hmm..... 4hrs......... hmm....... actually I just lazed on my bed and read my book earlier but then books always have a sleeping effect on me............. It's just like taking sleeping pills...........Anyway, I 'm not sure whether to continue my sleep again or do my assignment............. But I'm not feeling a least bit sleepy now............. Plus I will have to wake up in about 2 1/2 hrs time for work............. *sigh*.......... I hate to make such decisions.....

I'm not really into Robbie Williams......Although I do think he got a nice bod and tattoos.........Oh well, who doesnt think so right?!?......... Anyway, his new song "Come Undone" seems to get into me..........

Went to this new karaoke place at Paradise Centre called K-Box yesterday wit colleagues...... Quite a big and impressive place......... The rooms are all equipped with computerised system.......... All you need to do is use a controller to search for the songs that you want and just press "Enter"........ And you can start your singing....... Cool indeed!.........Plus most of the English songs are from original music videos!......... So you can get to see the actual MTV while singing........ Unlike other karaoke places that I have been to, their English songs are usually from unoriginal MTVs...... We are quite lucky though becos we actually managed to get the big room, where it is much spacious........... All thanks to one of my colleague whom know the management at K-Box!

After that, went down to Fort Canning Park as they have this charity event going on...........Not many crowd were seen........... They have this open screen showing "Catch Me If You Can"..........Have caught the show before so I wasnt really interested in it......... A few of us felt bored...... Left and went down to winebar to chill out instead.......... Becos it's 1 For 1! *grin*

Came across this piece of news in TNP today...........this gal working in Star City (a famous and popular Casino in Sydney) was sacked becos she did not removed her tongue stud............. She was being warned a few times to either remove it or replaced with a clear stud............. However, she refused to listen to her superior and in the end, the management decided to terminate her!............. This is actually happening in a western country which based on its culture and society, should be more open-minded and flexible than most Asian countries...........I find this quite outrageous and very debatable!........... Are body arts an obstacle in a normal working life?............. I used to have a nose stud and I find it very disturbing and irritated when pple always stare at it..............And I have to take it off whenever I went for my job interviews becos I understand that in Singapore's society, most people always stereo-type a person whom has done some art to their body .......*sigh*............. That's why a fren of mine whom has done alot of holes and pictures on her body does not want to work in the corporate world becos she knows that she will never be accepted in the group!

I felt so dumb yesterday....... Rushed down from work to school, only to realise that I have no class!...... I was looking and seaching for familiar faces in all the classrooms but couldnt find any........ Thus went to the check the time-table schedule in school, however, there wasnt any indication of my module.......... But I was supposed to have lessons every Wednesday....... Finally, called up my classmate to check and apparently there is no class for this week's Wednesday........ Damnit!....... Wasted my time to rush down....... And it was pouring........ Should have gone home to sleep instead....

I got short bangs now! ......... Was irritated by my not-so-long-but-not-so-short fringe........ Hence, went to zip it off instead!........ Now I feel so young..........

I'm so irritated by my mum....... Why cant she just give me some personal privacy?........ I feels like I'm being spied by her........

1) She always likes to come into my room to look for things (Dont even know what the hell she is looking for).......
2) Whenever I locked my room, she will ALWAYS likes to use the key to open it up and check out what I'm doing (Pardon Me.... But I'm not masturbating mum!... The only thing that I have done against your consent is inhaling tobbaco from my mouth and that's about it!).......
3) She likes to keep my room door ajar whenever I'm sleeping although I have closed it the previous night (Cum'on, can't I have some privacy while I'm sleeping too!! Do I have to expose my sleeping patterns and habits to you?!?!? )...

Arrrarrgghh!!...... I cant stand it!! ..... I need some my own free space MUM!!!.........

Heard Coldplay is coming to town in Septemeber again!....... WOOHOOOO.........

Know what?!?!?...... I was supposed to start to do my assignment yesterday night........ BUT in the end, I fell asleep and end my Monday night........ Damn!!...... Wasted one night away........ I really should do something on my assignment soon....... Time is tickling away.....

So I'm not that bitchy after all......

All a sudden, I have a craving for spaghetti........Thus went to Carefour earlier to buy a packet of spaghetti, a can of Campbell mushroom soup and some ham.... I'm gonna wack up the dish this weekend! *grin*......... I'm a self declared good cook!....... *grin*

I should start on my new assignment soon......... Have been procastinating for the last 2 weeks...... Got about a month left.......... 5000 to 8000 words.........and it's an individual assignment this time............. Gosh!!........ I REALLY need to start on something soon.........I need HELP!!

Anyway, I caught the X-MEN 2 on Wednesday's night!.......... All the tickets for the earlier shows are being sold out.......... In the end, my fren managed to get the tixs for the midnight show........... *Phew*....... Guess everyone is rushing to catch it when it's just released!..........Great movie!........... Think it is even better than Part 1............. More extreme stunts and exciting this time........... Mutants are all united to prevent human-kind from destroying them!.......... Rogue is a grown up pretty gal now......... And Ice-man and Pyro are kindda cute! *grin*...........I think the most charming of all is my favourite mutant - Wolverine..........Check out his great bod and nine-inch retractable adamantium claws!......... There aren't many scenes from Deathstrike except the fighting scene between Wolverine and her..... Guess you should know who is the one who survive!

Caught The Matrix Reloaded's trailer in the cinema too........... Wow!......... I was impressed and fascinated by the special effects!..........There's Keanu Reeves again!......... Wooohooo......... Definately gonna watch it when it's released in 2 weeks time...... I'm a movie manic this month! hehe...

It's a weekday but yet I dont feel this way........... I felt like it's a Sunday instead............. Probably becos it's a public holiday today and I dont have to work....... But then work's coming up later......... and then it's the weekend again........... How weird to have a public holiday falls on a weekday!

I think I'm a little sad....... But on the other hand, I think I'm not.......... Yes I THINK I am............. Hmmm........No I don't THINK so........... How contradicting!

My dad bought a new themometer and tested my temperature (to take precaution against the SARS)............. and guess what?!?!?.............my temperature was 37.1 degrees (normal temperature should be around 36 to 36.5 degrees)......... and my dad got worried about it and took another 3 more times.......... and it still shown the same temperature...........and then he became abit panicky........... asking me why in the hell my temperature was so high............. But I wasnt feeling feverish or anything........ Just then, my mum took another themometer and tested on me again............. This time, my temperature was 36.5 degrees....... hmm............. strange.......... anyway my dad wants me to take another time the next morning............Just to be sure............. *sigh*.........

There was so many good programmes on TV earlier........... Wrestlemania X-9 on Channel 5........... Man U vs Tottenham Match on ESPN ............. The Patriot on AXN (yup... I got SCV at home) .......... Didnt know which one to watch.......... All showing at about the same time..........In the end, watched The Patriot first because it started at 10.00 pm (It's a good movie - has watched it before)............. and then changed over to Wrestlemania for awhile.............and then to Man U match (I'm a Man U supporter!).........and then because my dad wanted to watch the whole match.............. I shifted over to my parent's room to catch Wrestlemania becos I simply couldnt miss such a big match (luckily I got 2 TVs at home)........... and because I have always been a big wrestling fan since young......... but at the same time, I also kept track of the Man U match........... Hah!..........I felt like I'm a TV addict today....

Wooohoooo......... There's Wrestlemania X-9 tonight!!!................ Rock vs Stone Cold.............. Triple H vs Booker T................. Hulkster vs Mr. McMahon............... WOOOHOOOO!!!!

Cant get the tickets to the preview of X-Men 2........... Guess I will have to pay to catch it when it is officially released in the cinemas.........Cant wait for it to be shown!........ Favourite Mutant - Wolverine!

To free my sorrows, I slipped down 6 glasses of Lychee Martini to get myself very high over the weekend.............

I was very disillusioned and depressed at work that I teared...........No one appreciates what I am doing...........

Ozzy Band - The Androids. Just downloaded their song "Do It with Madonna"........ Was laughing at the lyrics while listening to it........ It's all about "doing" with Madonna!.........If you know what I mean........*laf*...... Anyway, check them out!

Listening to Radiohead - "High & Dry" now.............. It's still one of my all time favourites!

My hp bill for this month shot up to $100 plus....... And sad to say I'm paying for my own bill........... Thus it is going to create a BIG hole in my pocket............. Although I have reimbursement from my company's incentives, I will still need to fork out a few bucks to make the full payment........... Spent alot on overseas phone call when I was at the Malaysia's resort last month.........Fucking Hell!!.......... I need to cut down on my bills....... Have been wasting too much money lately.......... I need to SAVE!!............. Or I wouldn't be able to get my dream car!

My ears are suffering at the moment ............... All the radio stations are playing crap songs tonight.......... Arrrghhh!!!........... Think I better plug on to my mp3 or CDs......... More smoothing and nicer to my ears........*switches off radio*

Downloaded "Swing Swing" by The All-American Rejects....... Nice pop rock song........ Humbling to the song now............"Swing Swing Swing from the tangles of my heart............."

Life is so boring here...... Even though it's a long weekend, but I still couldnt think of anything interesting to make use of it........ Basically weekend like this is an excuse and chance for me to sleep as much as I want and wake up late.......... That's what I did today.......... *grin*........... Gotta plan what to do tomorrow........... *sigh*......... Shit!!........ Got class in the afternoon........... Arrrgh!!......... School starting again!........... *sigh*...........What to do after that?........... hmm........... Cant think of anything........... Just see how things go tomorrow...........

I caught the tail of something I forgot to give
It's the strangest of emotions
I couldn't tell if it's the enemy in me
Now well, I could take a thousand years
No one stands and no one hears
Something tells me I could be alright
Through all the changes I could crawl
It's not enough to save it all
Temporary happiness, I like it

Would you say I'm never gonna tell you
Don't you know I'm straight to the point again
And I'm waiting for the second sun
To show me where I'm going wrong

Could you see if anybody is looking my way
I don't know if I believe you
I hope to god it's coming back on me someday
It's always happening to someone who
Could take it all and see it through
Now I'm left with nothing that I would need
And everything will turn around
And just as I am here I've found
Standing in the wake of you, I like it

Would you say I'm never gonna tell you
Don't you know I'm straight to the point again
And I'm waiting for the second sun
To show me where I'm going wrong
Going wrong

Second Sun - Superjesus

Long weekend is coming!!..........Yaaaa..........Hoooo..................!!!

I'm super angry and pissed at work today........ Colleague asked me to arrange for some drinking session after work ........ And when I arranged everything in order and nicely, he said he could only make it at a late timing............. Fucking Hell......... Should have told me earlier.............Wasted my time and effort in organising......... And he still got the cheek to ask me to arrange for tomorrow as well......... Aarrrghhhh!!!....... Bloody pissed.......... Dun care man..... I'm not going to arrange anything..........

To make things worse, everyone seems to be taken up today........... Just when I'm needed someone to go out with me!!!........ If not for the cancellation of my class last min today, I would have been to class and be a good gal instead!!......... After so much persuasion and talking, I managed to get some frens out for dinner and also engaged in some retail therapy to vent out my anger!.... Bought:



1) A Pair of Shoes - $29.90


2) A Beige Colour Cargo Pants - $69.00


3) A Black Singlet - $39.00



I spent about a total of $138.00!!!.......... Wow!!.......... Not too bad huh!!.......... A really big damage to myself!!..........

I need a holiday to somewhere......... I'm feeling sick here...........I'm feeling trapped........... I'm being sensitive............. I'm being emotional.......... I want to enjoy............. I want to be happy...........I need someone whom I can talk to.............. I need someone whom truly can understand me............... No one will know what I want............... Even I dont know about myself............. Should I hate myself?!?.......... I dont know.......... God gives me a life........... I should thank him for it............. We all should thank him!

I'm feeling moody these few days.......... I dun know is it becos of PMS........ Or some other psychological problems............. But I'm just feeling LOUSY........... I guess no one can understand how I feel........... Arrgghhh!!!!!............. I just HATE the world.............

I'm getting sick of the songs being played in S'pore radio stations........Just realised I can listen to the radio stations down under 'live' on the internet......... Take a plug to them...

Triple J

Nova 96.9

BondiFM

HooHoo......... Superjesus is going to release their new album in May........ Their new single "Stick Together" is already out in Oz.......... Gotta get my hand on the album when its' out!........... *sigh*...... Emptying my pockets again.........

Paul OakenFold was great last night...... I have always loved his spinning session.......... Dance floor was packed with all the lancers........The air was filled with second-hand smoke.......... Everyone was in close contact becos there wasnt much space to move around......... Nobody gave a damn to SARS....... even though the infectious rate is getting higher and higher everyday.......... Paul Oakenfold was what matter at that point of time..

Yaba Daba Doo........ I finally got my Jebediah CD delivered all the way from down under by fren (thanks to him!)..... Check out the album cover!

Unique isn't it!

And I'm listening to the CD now......... *grin*

A MOTHERFUCKER ASSHOLE WITH NO BALLS!!!............. I wish he GETS SCARS AND DIE A HORRIBLE DEATH!!!

"DREAMCATCHER"............. Totally CRAP B-Grade horror movie............. Luckily I watched it free............. It's DEFINATELY not worth paying........... Was confused and feeling bored thru-out the whole show............. Thought it's about spiritual world............. But then guess what?!?!?............... hmm............ I better not said............. Go watch it yourself if you wanna know......... *evil grin*

My hot pan beancurd was considered a success last Sat........... even though this is my first attempt in cooking it.......... *grin* ............ Wasted so much time, effort, sweat and heat to finish the dish........... But it's worth it becos I won the competition!....... Everyone was singing my praises..... = )

Does my fren look like Bret Anderson? grin...... I will be seeing him again soon...........

Just finished exams.......... Got a short break before the next module starts............. Was supposed to wake up at 4am to study this morning......... But as difficult and lazy as always......... I only managed to force myself to wake up at 6.30am to continue studying........... Only managed a few hours of sleep............. But surprisingly I'm not feeling tired now.......... Gonna have pot luck at fren's hse later...........A change from the normal barbecuing..... Hope my cooking isnt that bad!

It's raining cats and dogs.......... Just have a fag.......... Super bored.......... Need to study.......... Exams tomorrow............. No mood.......... Feels like going out.........But feeling guilty about it......... The rain spoilts my tentative plan........... How! How! How........... It's the weekend but I have to stay at home and sulk at my notes! FUCK!!

Yay!!..... I got Linkin Park's latest album "METEORA"!..... And at a much cheaper price than normal retail price! grin......

Check out my frens in Melbourne!....... Funny dudes!

This suede's pic is taken by one of my frens when they were in Singapore for a gig ..... Bret Anderson looked so cool with his specs!....

Arrrgh.... I'm frustrated wit all these html codes.........

Yay!........ People has been commenting about my tan-ness........... grin........... My efforts of getting a tan by suffering under the scotching hot sun have not gone in vain!......... I really does look much darker now......

There is this saying which goes "A Leopard Will NEVER Change Its Spots"..... How true it is!......
I'm just glad that I have finally got over the agony and pain.......... But it is not so lucky for some stupid fool.... hah!

My event last Friday went quite smoothly...... the crowd didnt come in till 10 plus....... Was kindda worried at first at the barely packed place....... My tentative timing for the programs and performance were all shifted back becos of it........And the first program for the night finally kick-start at about 10.30 pm........ followed by the debut 'live' performance of our local act....... The performance was great....... They did well for their first performance....... Everyone was enjoying themeselves........ drinking to their hearts' contents........ BUT I was hiding at one corner and avoiding all the drinks...... grin........ Nah..... I wasnt being anti-social..... It's just that I have to wake up damn fucking EARLY the next day to catch the 8am ferry for my weekend getaway!!........ Which means I have to wake up at 6am and reach Tanah Merah Terminal by 7.30am!!!........YES!!! No Kidding!!!...... 6 am!!!...... Knowing myself, it will be a torture for me to wake up at that time........ But then I have no choice!! ........ Thus, I cant drink too much that night! Anyway, I finally got home nearly 3 am and still had to pack my stuffs to bring for my getaway....and finally get to dreamland at 5.30am.....
I overslept the next morning (luckily my fren called my hse to wake me up at 6.45am) .......supposed to meet them 7am near my hse to go to the ferry terminal together... By the time I met them it's already 7.15am...... Rushed a cab down and then rushed there at 7.35 am...... luckily we were not late or we would have missed the ferry..... Had a enjoyable and wonderful time at the resort....... Nice scenary...... Serene and Calm atmosphere.....Totally out of this world man!......... Sun-tanning, Swimming, Barbecuing, Seafood, Games, Chilled out etc.......... Now I looked like a lobster with my new tanned!...... Frens were all commenting how fair I was previously....... But I'm getting better now..... grin.....

Phew!!.... Been so busy lately....Barely can catch my breathe with all the rush going on........ Last week was busy preparing for my event on Friday..... and then straight after my event, I was out of town for a weekend getaway...... then came back on Sunday's evening, totally shagged and exhausted....... and then Monday, I have been rushing to do my assignment (luckily I took the day off) becos I have a presentation this Sat...... And yesterday, was out drinking with colleagues...... Went to a Press Party (Free flow of drinks!!!) at some hotel in the afternoon........ then to a pub later in the evening.......and then to a club later at night...... Supposed to do my assignment yesterday night but I was too tired and just went straight back to bed after I got home at 2 plus in the morning!....... And this morning, guess what?!?!?..... I woke up late!!!....... F@$%!!! ........ The price to pay for all the drinking!

JEBEDIAH released a new album called "Gleesides and Sparities".......... I'm gonna get it!....... I'm gonna get it!......Cant wait to plug my ears to it!

HIGH by Feeder.......... Awesome!

Had a farewell company dinner for a colleague on Wednesday...... Went to this Penarankan restaurant in Bukit Timah called Irvin Irvin........ Nice food..........Lots of my favourite spicy stuffs...... grin...... The place was packed even though it was a weekday and the resturant is not very accessible as you need to drive in order to get to the place.........But it is worth going especially if you are a spicy food lover like Me! = ) .....

After dinner, some of us proceed to get our party started!........ We went down to Planet for a few drinks............ But the place was quite "dead" on a weeknight.......... Nevertheless, it was a good place to just chill out and the drinks were alot cheaper than most clubs [anyway I did not have to fork out a single cent ; )] .............. But everyone seemed so restless and bored after awhile............. Then one of my colleagues suggested going Mambo Jumbo to grab the 1 for 1!.......... I'm on for it and the rest of my collgeagues were also sporting enough to go..........So off we go to Mambo to grab the drinks before 12 midnight!...........It's been a very long time since I last went to Mambo........... Cant remembered how long ago........... But I only know it's during my poly times............. Those were the days man!....... Anyway, we had a "crazy" and "mad" time!............. Drinking to our heart content.............. Boogie ourselves to the retro songs..............Fun! Fun! Fun!.......... I was forced by my colleagues to drink till my stomach can bust anytime!................ Everyone was high..............Went home with an unclear mind.............Concussed till this morning..........Went to work with a "stoned" face!.......... laf........... Drank Teh-O to clear away all the alchohol that was floating my stomach.........Still felt bloated now.......... More drinks to come next Friday ........... Die man!

Listening to Collective Soul - "Lightning Crashes" now........ Nice slow rock........ Coming up next.......... Hmm........... Let me check my mp3 files............Weezer - "Keep Fishin"!

I need a car of my own!.......... I Need to Save!............. Save!.............. Save!..........

I heard my sister quarrelling with her bf on the phone earlier............. sigh........... Relationships................ sigh..............Same old shits always........... sigh.........

I hate to watch sad love stories...... it's often touches my heart and makes me cry..........

Was thinking of dyeing my hair with streaks of red or purple............. But then I overspent last month........... and the dyeing might cost me about $200 with my hair length....... Damn!

Why do people in Singapore always associate dance music to the bengs? Dance is also a form of MUSIC!!!......... M.........U...........S...........I.............C...........If you consider yourself a music lover, then you shouldnt discrimminate Dance! So what if you are into rock, pop, classical, jazz etc etc, they are also MUSIC!.......... They are all under the same umbrella name called MUSIC!!.............. I used to dislike dance music too............. But ever since I landed in my current job, I'm beginning to appreciate it.............. Dance is so popular and big in the west.......... So does that associate the western people to be bengs too?......... I think Singaporeans are just fucking narrow-minded!

Linkin Park's new album will be out around 25th this month........... grin........... Cant wait for it to be released!!

Just cut my hair yesterday............. The stupid hairstylist made me wait for about an hour before he came over to cut my hair............. Then to make things worse, he was so rough when he was cutting my hair............ I never felt so painful for an haircut......... To make it even worser, he dropped the infuser on the hair-dryer while blowing my hair....... Luckily it didnt hit my head!....... Then he pull out my earring on my left ear while cutting my hair......... Then right one again............ Damn!!.... *Points to note - It's not safe to have so many ear holes on your ears but then, a total of 6 ear holes for both ears is not considered alot right?!?*.......... After that, he trimmed and thinned my hair till I'm left with so little hair now....... FUCKER!!!.......... Actually wanted to let my usual hairstylist to do the hair for me but she was off yesterday........... Learnt my lesson already..........No more next time..... This guy hairstylist cannot make it!

Why do I always fall asleep in class?? ........... Arrrggghhh.......... Dont understand!!............. Even though someone whom I have been eyeing for quite sometime is finally in the same class as me........... But then again, didnt manage to talk to him........No chance I guess........ Less than a month more to go........

Hahahaha..... I'm laughing to myself about something...... Hahahahaa..........

Check out this alternative rock band from UK, Feeder............ You can also listen to the songs in the new album called "Comfort in Sound" on the site.......... I especially like the song, Just The Way I'm Feeling.......... Been listening to its mp3 on my computer...."yeah.. yeah.... it's just the way I'm feeling........."

Been suffering from insomnia lately........ Cant get to sleep till like 7am in the morning..........and I have to wake up an hour later for work.............Was only getting like 1 or 2 hours of sleep per night......... I was just basically tossing and turning in bed and thinking of my past, present and future.........So many things running thru my head........ Not sure whether is it becos of all the stress and pressure that I have been getting at work........... This is really bad.........

Class sucks yesterday............. Lecturer was boring and slow...... First half was almost dozing off......Second half was just dreaming away...... Classmates were complaining about the dryness of the lesson......... Think I will skip class this Thurs........ No motivation to go............ I rather do my own self studying........Anyway, still got 5 more modules to go....... Seems so near but yet so far........... Hope I can pull thru this period.......

Supper pissed.......... Supper unhappy.......... All are motherfuckers............. Hate them!......... HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............................. I know it's rude to show my temper............. But then again, I just doesnt care anymore............... GO TO HELL YOU MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Got a phone call from a young gal (her voice sounded quite young) today...... Dam funny...

Gal: Hello, may I know how can I send my song to your company?
Me: Huh? what kind of song is it?
Gal: What do you mean?
Me: I mean is it an English or Chinese song?
Gal: Oh.... It is a Chinese song.
Me: I see.... Why do you want to send the song to us?
Gal: Becos I want to be a singer.
Me: (Chuckles quietly) I'm sorry but we dont just signed a person to be a singer just like that....
Gal: Then how can I be a singer?
Me: (Nearly wanted to laugh out but controlled my laughter) Well, I'm in no position to tell you how to be a singer but then you cant just send your demo tape to us and want to be a singer...
Gal: But I want to be a singer!
Me: (Abit pissed but at the same time find it funny by her naive) Then you will have to join a singing competition and impress the judges before any record label will be willing to sign you up.....
Gal: Oh..... Ok..... Thanks..
Me: You're Welcome...
Gal: Bye!
Me: Bye!

After I put down the phone, I laugh to myself....... How can anyone be so naive! hmmm..........I wanna be a rock star....... Can I send my demo tape to anyone??? hahahaa.....

14 Feb.... What does it stand for?........... Valentine's Day?.............. Why do people celebrate V.Day?.............. Becos of St. Valentine?.............. Or becos of Adam & Eve?.......... Why do flowers have to be given on V.Day?........... Stupid isnt it?...............Streets will be full of couples........... Gals will be carrying flowers...........Restaurants will be jammed packed with lovebirds.............. How Dumb!............. I rather fix a date for my own V.Day and celebrate..........

Just had a few drinks with few frens........... Think I'm getting more attracted to him........... Not to his looks.............But there's something about him that made me grown to him.......... Cant explain it myself............. It's just the feeling.................. His image kept lingering on my mind.............. I dont think it's possible between us especially the situation I'm in now ................ How? How? How?..............sigh....................Guess I should tell myself to just forget him..............That's the best way............ It is so wrong of me..........Forget! Forget Forget!

Dont feel a thing.......... Dont have the mood..........Dont have the atmosphere.......... Lunar New Year?........... Felt like any other normal day to me............. Same old thing every year.............. But just that this year is my first CNY in my new house........... Doesnt matter anyway....

Something hit me so hard recently that it triggered my tears to flow uncontrollably............. It's been awhile since I last cried.......... The last time my tears flowed, I was hurt very badly by someone who meant alot to me ........... But this time, it was different.......... I cried becos I'm totally shocked and disillusioned by the evil and cruel means of people...........I'm totally losing Faith, Hope and Trust in everything......... I'm in a terrible, demoralised and miserable state.............. Plastic people everywhere............. Dont know who are the trustworthy, true and nice people anymore............... Maybe it's my fault for getting myself in this state.............. A lesson for me to learn........... I'm at a loss in salvaging this situation and help myself.............. Impression has been formed ............Stigma is there...........Watching eyes everywhere.............. I wanna give up...........I just hate myself........... Take me away...........

Avril Lavign was the big winner at last Friday's MTV Asia Awards!.......... She bagged away a total of 3 awards- FavouriteFemale Artiste, Favourite Breakthrough Artiste and Best Style Awards (Style?)............. Quite amazing for an 18 year old kid!.......... Well, she was really petite and short in real person..... and she was wearing this high-cut boots with berms plus a short-sleeve red cheongsam top! The top is a total mis-match man! (And mind you she won the Best STYLE Awards?!) ......... But the crowd obviously loved her!.......... When she was performing "Sk8ter Boi", the crowd went jumping and putting their hands up in the air!...........And she kept saying "You guys Rock!" in her Thank-You Speech! ......... And Robbie Williams was wearing a suit at the awards........... Was kindda disappointed becos I was looking forward to seeing his hunky bod!........... He looked much cuter in real person............. And he really knew how to shake his ass when he was performing his song "Feel" ......... The crowd went wild when he just suddenly came down from the stage and have direct close contact with the people........... But he has an air of a pop-star........... Oh well, cant blame him..........Becos he is really a POP-STAR!.......... MatchBox Twenty's performance was so cool............. with all their guitar, drum, bass, vocals and lightings..........Totally rock man!...........Too bad, they didnt win any awards that night............. And I finally got to see my favourite rock band, LINKIN PARK!....... Although only 2 members came down, Joe and Chester, and they didnt get to perform, but it's such a rare sight to see them in SIngapore!!.......... I will always remember it man!....... grin.......... Anyway, they won the Favourite Rock Act" Award & "Favourite Video"!!............. YAY!!!.............

The whole event was much better than last year.......... That's what my colleague told me.......... He said last year there's alot of rehearse becos the awards is actually a pre-recorded thingy and was supposed to air at a later time slot........... But this year, everything went very smoothly......... No stopage for rehearse when performing...........Everything is just one take and done............. Although I missed the first half hour of the event and I spent the next half hour trying to get good seats (becos the seat that was allocated to me was not really that good in viewing the artistes), I still enjoyed the whole event!.......... Rock On!

Just got the tickets to the MTV Asia Awards 2003............. Will get to see Robbie Williams (check out his bods and tattoo man!)......... Avril Lavigne (Cool Punk Sk8ter Chick!) ........... Suede ........... Linkin Park (Rock on!)............. Attomic Kitten.......... Blue ........ etc....... etc....... All the big artistes in one starry night........... How exciting!............ Hope I will be able to make it in time to catch the stars walking through the red carpet.........
Damn pissed with frens............ Been "pestering" by them to get tickets for them way before the awards.......... And when I got an extra ticket (becos one of my colleagues couldnt make it last min)............. One said "I think cannot lah..... I got to accompany my bf tomorrow becos today I never meet him and if I dont meet him tomorrow he will make noise!" (Fucking hell! Before that, you have asked me about getting the ticket for you and then here I am trying to be nice and chose you as my first priority to give you the tix but then you told me you have to accompany your stupid bf! ).......... After the first fren couldnt go, I asked my second choice and this is the answer he gave me "Dont think so..... Tomorrow have to work." (Na Bei CCB! Then dont asked me for the tickets if you knew you are going to work on that day! What Crap!).......... That's it man!....... Next time NO more being a nice fren to them!....... These kind of frens can fucking throw away!

Wooo Hooo.......... The fifth book for J.K.Rowling, Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix, will FINALY be releasing mid this year......... Cant wait for it!!........ But then again, it seems like such a long time before mid year arrives!........... sigh.......... US has already started to take orders online now............. Arrrgh........ Damn! Damn! Damn!

Fren is out of town for 10 days.......... Dont know whether to feel happy or sad........... Think I felt abit more happier........... Getting kindda sick of it.......... But 10 days is not that long............. It will pass in a flash......... It will going to be CNY by the time he's back.............. I better enjoy myself while he's not around now.........

Hmm........... I think I have developed a sudden interest in another person.............It will be impossible with fren around............ Have been thinking of this person alittle......... Shit!........... I'm getting fickle-minded............ Been hoping to see more of him this week........... But then I know it will be hard............. sigh.............. But this week is my only chance............. How? How? How?

Bought a new phone yesterday....... after trading in my Nokia 8210 and using my $200 Voucher........ and got FREE Delifrance Voucher and ticket to catch the Jackie Chan's new film - Shanghai Knight.......... Still paid quite a sum for it.......... But come to think of it, I already paid so much lesser than the normal retail price.......... and it comes with so many cool and powerful features - Color Screen, LED Color Indicator, WAP, World Time, Wall Paper, Futuristic Design etc........ It's worth the money I think........... Anyway, check out my new phone - SGH_T100!
grin.....